syam’s

currently..my life was good..good yet fun job i have now..everyday busy wit work..and my own activity such as snooker and racing..hehe

just to think bout love life? hurm..nothing much..better for me not to have anybody i guess…

just live life to the max! enjoy till you drop!x abis2 live band..huh.penat!

mission: kayaking, bungee jumping, go for wild holiday, cari duit byk2, do something wit my car, hurm..panjat bukit, scuba diving, hurm..byk lagi nk kena buat ni! hehe..get a new gf?? naa..forget bout it..

live life to the MAX!

hurm..where shud i begin?
there’s a lot of thing to say.. a lot of things happened recently.. including so many type of feelings and emotions..

huh

i just finished my study week ago..and im happy wit it..no need to go to class, no need to submit xments, n sit for exam! means, i had passed one step in my life. have to struggle a lot ater this, to gained exp and salary..but, suddenly, i feel loss.. i feel empty..i had failed! failed in creating a better future! i admit, i had wasted a lot of time n of coz..money, and, i achieve nothing! NONE! wut’s my CGPA? huh..regretness came into my heart..i miss those times in classes, interacting wit beloved lecturer, discussing wit friends, expecting to get some knowledge..but, i had screwed evthing! and i feel soo….empty.

wuts more that could happen to me? love life? haha.. thats a topic that is really interesting.. also screwed up in that topic.. gf? nil.. y? huh.dunno..she left me in frustration..really deep that almost makes me cry n….empty..wut a big impact? do i really love her? is it? maybe yes..i really love her..eventho she’s not preety as most of gurls out there..she’s smart? no..she’s not..she may seems not perfect to anyone else, but to me, she’s making me COMPLETE! i miss her looks into my life..miss her touching me n make me fell that evthing’s going to be alrite..miss her! but, destined to someone else and makes me feel terrible..12.8 is d date..hope, she’s gonna happy ever after wit that guy.. just want to say here dat i do loves u..n miss u…nobody can love me like u’ll do..really.. ;(

and here i am, in front of tv..5 clock in d morning..wit love story on the screen, and listening to buble..feel soooo helpless..and make me look so pathetic..no any plans for future..no vision..not ambitious as before..nothing..damn empty and dull..hoping to find d light..but dark..

oh ya, i wonder, where the hell all of my x-neighbour and long lost friends? w they never hit me wit one single msg? have i done any wrong? did i flirt wit their bf or gf? did i? did i cheat u? did i make u uncomfy wit me? if so, im sorry..hope y’all forgive me..i just hope our friendship didnt last like diz..i hate to see u in my friend’s list, but, it just it..no any interaction..y? open ur mind! plz..

till then, dunno wut else to write..sorry for the broken english..daa~

wut can i say more..

just congratulation. hope to see u happy, forever..

thanks for everything!its been a wonderful journey for the past 3 great years!

thanks.

;(

from a very frustated guy name syamsul razmin!

huh.

what’s in life dat i want? and wut was the meaning?

im writing this bcoz, rite now, i really felt dat i had done so many mistake n changes until i cannot bare the cost!!

spent a lot of money for college n expenses, but..

what do i do?
just spent all the money, doing nothing, enjoying my self, and just… nothing!

i never felt sad and damn regret of anything in my life!

and, the frustration really kills me now..

now, with all the things that i’ve done,

i didnt have a lot of option in life..

i had to let go something, that really precious..

in order for me to struggle back in life,

and built a new whole world..

sorry to anybody if ive ever done any mistake..

fly my baby, fly!

spread ur wings and fly!

dont look back!

fly towards the sky!

of god’s will, meet u at the sky,

and now just fly my BUTTERFLY!

i will be praying for u, from down here..

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you’ve done
Forgive all your mistakes
There’s nothing I wouldn’t do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won’t be there

Ohh I’m sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn’t do
And I’ve hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won’t admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide ’cause it’s you I miss
And it’s so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

There’s nothing I wouldn’t do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

Ohh I’m sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn’t do
And I’ve hurt myself, ohh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I’ve missed you
Since you’ve been away
Ooh, it’s dangerous
It’s so out of line
To try and turn back time

I’m sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn’t do
And I’ve hurt myself by hurting you

Alone Again, Naturally

Where do I begin?
To tell the story of how great a love can be
The sweet love story that is older than the sea
The simple truth about the love he brings to me
Where do I start?

Like a summer rain
That cools the pavement with a patent leather shine
He came into my life and made the living fine
And gave a meaning to this empty world of mine
He fills my heart

He fills my heart with very special things
With angels' songs, with wild imaginings
He fills my soul with so much love
That anywhere I go, I'm never lonely
With him along, who could be lonely
I reach for his hand, it's always there

How long does it last?
Can love be measured by the hours in a day?
I have no answers now, but this much I can say
I'm going to need him till the stars all burn away
And he'll be there

He fills my heart with very special things
With angels' songs, with wild imaginings
He fills my soul with so much love
That anywhere I go, I'm never lonely
With him along, who could be lonely
I reach for his hand, it's always there

How long does it last?
Can love be measured by the hours in a day?
I have no answers now, but this much I can say
I'm going to need him till the stars all burn away
And he'll be there

its been too long that the sadness stay in my heart..

too many frustation that happened.

i just have to be tough for what had happened.

huh..

huh.. its been ages since my last blog!

hmm. what to say?

ok, kiter start ngan citer mggu lepas.

Last weekend was a very tiring weekend.

on last saturady nite, me, zaki n faliq went to shah alam to meet zaki’s sister.

we went there by zaki’s gilera n faliq’s cito.

the journey to shah alam was fun. there was nothing happen.

but, just after we passed the batu tiga tol, zaki’s scoot suddenly gave us headache!

firstly, his spark plug kong!

so, ok la.. we changed the plug n everything ok!

but, the ‘ok’ just stand for less than 1/2 hour.

the plug again spoilt!

after 15 min repairing, then evthng was fine!

in the same time, zaki’s sister called and told us to wait at the drift track, at u.s.j,

so, three of us riding to u.s.j, and again, problem appeared.. 

zaki’s gilera, again went into a damn big hole!

the rim was crack and the tyre punctured!

huh.

after realizing the bad luch we had that nite, we decided to go back to our college..

witout seeing zaki’s sister, n witout watching the drift!

me n faliq had to push zaki’s n his gilera from batu tiga tol, until our beloved college!

and it takes us 3 DAMN HOURS! (normal drieve is about 45 minute!)

pergh! that was the farest and longest journey of my LIFE!

so, after a very tiring ride back to college, evthng went back to normal again.

but, not at this moment!

my life still in miserable!

at this moment, i hv 11 assignment to finish within a week!

how the hell? 11 xment in one week?!!shibby!

and next week, on 5th n 7th, i got exam!

oh god!

this long weekend really challenge me like hell!

what a tiring life!

oh ya, to zaki faliq, cheers for our victory! (coz we reached our college safely!)