my point of view
Monday, August 6th, 2007hurm..where shud i begin?
there’s a lot of thing to say.. a lot of things happened recently.. including so many type of feelings and emotions..
huh
i just finished my study week ago..and im happy wit it..no need to go to class, no need to submit xments, n sit for exam! means, i had passed one step in my life. have to struggle a lot ater this, to gained exp and salary..but, suddenly, i feel loss.. i feel empty..i had failed! failed in creating a better future! i admit, i had wasted a lot of time n of coz..money, and, i achieve nothing! NONE! wut’s my CGPA? huh..regretness came into my heart..i miss those times in classes, interacting wit beloved lecturer, discussing wit friends, expecting to get some knowledge..but, i had screwed evthing! and i feel soo….empty.
wuts more that could happen to me? love life? haha.. thats a topic that is really interesting.. also screwed up in that topic.. gf? nil.. y? huh.dunno..she left me in frustration..really deep that almost makes me cry n….empty..wut a big impact? do i really love her? is it? maybe yes..i really love her..eventho she’s not preety as most of gurls out there..she’s smart? no..she’s not..she may seems not perfect to anyone else, but to me, she’s making me COMPLETE! i miss her looks into my life..miss her touching me n make me fell that evthing’s going to be alrite..miss her! but, destined to someone else and makes me feel terrible..12.8 is d date..hope, she’s gonna happy ever after wit that guy.. just want to say here dat i do loves u..n miss u…nobody can love me like u’ll do..really.. ;(
and here i am, in front of tv..5 clock in d morning..wit love story on the screen, and listening to buble..feel soooo helpless..and make me look so pathetic..no any plans for future..no vision..not ambitious as before..nothing..damn empty and dull..hoping to find d light..but dark..
oh ya, i wonder, where the hell all of my x-neighbour and long lost friends? w they never hit me wit one single msg? have i done any wrong? did i flirt wit their bf or gf? did i? did i cheat u? did i make u uncomfy wit me? if so, im sorry..hope y’all forgive me..i just hope our friendship didnt last like diz..i hate to see u in my friend’s list, but, it just it..no any interaction..y? open ur mind! plz..
till then, dunno wut else to write..sorry for the broken english..daa~